Saturday - And I'm Looking For My Own Island

Oh wow...two entries back to back.  The world must surely be ending, lol.  How goes it?  Just not doing much today.  I slept like forever, or it felt like I could.  Have been working so much lately that I guess I'm worn out.  Caleb woke me up a few times and finally said, "Mom! It's 4:00!"  Oy!

Well I got up, talked to Kathryn for a while, jumped into the shower and then the boy and I went to a $1 movie that cost me $6.  How does that add up, ha ha?  At any rate, we saw Nims Island.  It was really cute.  Didn't get a lot of press but I liked the idea of having my own private island away from the rest of world, then I could live out my hermit mode w/o too much poking at me.  Course I would have to have my puter and TV, and oh yeah...the kids ;)

Missing Hannah. She went back to OKC last Sunday (hence the double entries).  One week down, six more to go.  I told Hannah she could stay extra since there is a church youth retreat she wants to go to in Aug.  What a good Mom I am!  Sure wish I could move closer.  ::Sigh::

Got an email from David today.  First part he is threatening me (a usual occurrence), then in the end tells me he loves me and misses me.  Jeez, I sure do miss the emotional abuse and manipulation I lived with for ten years.  Let me think...Nah, not gonna go back!

Gotta work the next three nights then I'm off on the 2nd for Texas for six days!!!  I soooo need the break.  It is the annual get-together at my Dad's for July 4th.  So, if I don't post again I'm sure you won't be surprised given my track record of late, haha.

Wishing you all a safe holiday!

Ciao!

De ;)

Tags: Nim's Island, It's My Life, July 4th, Cigarettes

Friday - And I'm Just a Little Bit Stressed

Well, wow...can't believe it's been a couple of months since I posted last.  Hannah was here hogging my computer, but that is really just an excuse.  I've really been stressed and been in my hermit/hibernation mode.

To make a long story short and to skip a lot of details, I've had to work a lot because of two reasons...(1) David isn't paying me support despite an Order to do so, and (2) my job cut our pay (I didn't realize that a recession had hit the health care industry).

The second issue is pretty complicated, but I haven't left because I keep thinking if I hang on then they will re-instate the pay, the bonuses, and give us a raise.  Also, if I get another job, I'd really just like to leave the state and move closer to my family.  Gotta do the legal legwork with the Court to do that one.  This sucks cause I sure don't want to be stuck 1100 miles from my family until Caleb is much older.  I hate being in this situation again!

The first issue is the most frustrating.  I never ever saw this blatant disregard and general insaneness in David when we were first married or dating.  If I had, I would have run for the hills.  I often ask myself how could I have been so blind?  I know David thinks if he bankrupts me I will come running back to him, but I have news for him...I'm ALREADY GONE!

Well, enough of my morose and self-pity...my sister Kathryn (who is my fav, right Kat?) is having a rough time right now.  Without going into detail, just keep her in mind today will ya?  Hope this cheers you up...

And how has everyone else been?  I need to catch up on your journals as well as the rest of my life, lol.

Ciao for now!

De ;)

Tags: Ironic, Already Gone, Baby Got Back