Thursday - And A New Beginning

Well looks like AOL is shutting down their journal site. That's three years worth of memories for me, some good, some bad, none wanting to be forgotten.  I don't know how to save or transfer them.  I don't want to lose friendships. I just really don't know where to go from here, but I do hope I find you there...

Ciao! De ;)

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Saturday - And I'm All Lonesome

Ellloooo!  I know, I know I never post anymore.  Just not much exciting going on or too much, take your pick, ha ha.  At any rate, I'm sitting here all alone as Caleb is at David's and Hannah is back in Oklahoma as of Thursday morning (boo hoo).  I tried to pick up a shift but was all full.  Oh well, I've been working too hard lately anyways.

Well guess what?  David finally got served those divorce papers last week along with a protective order and a motion to enforce the support.  I mean after six weeks of attempts it finally happened.  That means he was served in time for the enforcement hearing in Oct.  Yeah!  Does that mean I will see any money anytime soon, probably not from the fact that I haven't seen a dime in 55 days.  Humph!  Well we'll see, just keep your fingers crossed for me cause I'm tired and stressed out!

What get's me is that David still doesn't get it that I don't want to reconcile.  I mean, seriously, the man had me thrown in jail and he thinks I still love him but am fighting that loving feeling.  Jeez!  OMG he needs to get a reality check, KWIM?  Anyways, nuff of my complaining.

Another reason I haven't posted much lately is that Hannah got me hooked on Facebook.  I usually log on a couple times a day just to mess around or see what she is up to.  Anyone want to be my friend, lol?

Did I tell you we got a new director at work?  Well we are sharing the director from one of our other hospitals.  He is good, but we got a dummy to be our "clinical manager".  Good grief the man has rocks for brains, but it is better than the evil one we had before.  Hopefully some good changes, we will see.  Would be nice if I get a raise in Oct, a promotion, and they bring our incentives back!  Well aren't I just asking for the moon, lol?

So how are you?  With that, I'm signing off and saying...

Ciao!!  De ;)

 

Tags: I'm Not Ready to Make Nice

Tuesday - And It's Movie Review Time

 Babylon AD is not as bad as the reviews, but could have been better. I understood the plot and the message that the movie was supposed to deliver, but did not. I do think the ending is what "killed" the movie because before that I was intrigued and entertained. Still worthy of viewing, but I'd save your money for the DVD release.  Best part of spending $9.50 on this movie...seeing Vin Diesel larger than life!!  (And that reminds me...thanks Lyn for lending us poor citizens your lovely Brit, Beckham...another yum!).

Onto other thoughts...I can't believe it's been over a month since I've posted.  My doesn't life have a way of running away with you?  Much happened.  Evil director out at work although still present but as a staff nurse only (ha!), new director in (hopefully a good thing).  Old DON out, still looking for new DON.  I'm now the official "scheduler" in the ER whether that is good or bad we'll see.  Still working a lot.

Hannah is here!  Been here for a couple of weeks.  Almost haven't seen here though due to my work schedule.  Boo!  More reasons to hate on my ex (who is still not paying me the money the Court awarded me...).  Caleb over at my ex half the time...another boo!

I do like it that I don't have to answer to someone else's alternate reality, but it does still overflow a bit with having to deal with him regarding Caleb.  David is still terrorizing me as much as he can when he can.  I wish he would just fall of the face of the earth...::sigh::...or take up his "many opportunities" and have another relationship cause I ain't ever going back!!  And I wish I didn't have to spend all my hard earned money trying to get David to pay me what he owes me.  (Sorry rambling vent here)

On that note, I hope you have had a good summer and that the cool air of the fall is just around the corner.  We have been in the upper 90s this week, but I think I see the 100s again later on.  But we have had some nice monsoon storms, if you don't get caught in them, lol.  Getting to the nice part of living in the desert.  Miss my family, still hoping to move closer.

Going to work tonight and tomorrow.  Have a good couple of days!

Ciao!

De ;)

PS:  Latest weight...121.6!

Tags: Vin Diesel

Thursday - And I'm Still Fat

Well, as you can guess by my title, I'm still fat, ugh.  I got off track again.  So I said I would start over (again) when I got back from my vacation to Texas.  And I have.  So I will be updating and trying to be accountable for what I'm doing.  Who knows, maybe this time will be the time I stick with it.

Just dropped Caleb off with David a night early, and that makes me sad.  But I got a call from work today saying that the Director of Nursing wants to meet with all the ER charge nurses in the morning at 0730.  I could have woken Caleb up and drug him with me at the crack of dawn, but instead I thought it would be easier on all involved if I did it this way.  I wouldn't even go to the meeting if it wasn't with the DON or the fact that we will be discussing the newest ER Nursing Director and hopefully getting him out of there.  OMG, I know I haven't even broached this subject but this guy is a complete idiot and has absolutely no idea what he is doing.  Was an EMT for fifteen years and a nurse for two years.  You tell me what part of that equation qualifies you to run a department?  Maybe in some cases the person could step and do a good job, but he is destroying the department from the inside out and we've had no less than five people quit in the month he's been in the position and two more are out the door.  We've been in complete internal disaster and he refused to let us go on diversion.  We also worked critically short and he refused to let us get agency or come in himself stating instead "keep up the good work". The man has no clue and I hope this meeting has him out the door.

Well, here's crossing my fingers.  And with that I think I'll say...

Ciao!  De ;)

 

Starting weight: 125.2   Today: 124.0   Exercise: Malibu Pilates-33 minutes

Tags: Dieting again

Tuesday - And Oh that's the life I tell ya...

Well it's Tuesday...my first without a meeting in 6 months and what am I doing?  Not a darn thing!  Well, earlier I did run some errands and go to Wal-Mart (cause they have everything), cooked dinner, but mainly I'm hanging out with my boy.  I always stressed to the women in my group to save Tuesdays for themselves and do something fun.  Well, hanging out with the kiddos may not seem like "fun" to some, but I can't tell you how much I appreciate the capability of being able to do just that and not be locked up somewhere, considering I'm such a dangerous slipper-welding criminal, lol.

But onto another light note, I was sitting eating dinner with Caleb when he starting commenting on this Disney movie he was watching and said, "She has a limo and a butler Mom.  Can you imagine?  Oh that's the life I tell ya!"  So I said, "Well you can have both if you work really hard when you get older ya know."  "Really?  Well I'm going to work as a cashier at Wal-Mart then!"  Oh geez, well I think he is going to have work a little bit harder than that, but I'm not going to bust his bubble because it's my first Tuesday without a meeting and all is well!

On that note...

Ciao!  De ;)

Tags: The Simple Life

Monday - And I'm Melancholy

Well I should've worked tonight because I'm sitting here alone in my apartment (Caleb is at David's and Hannah is on a church youth camp in FL) and feeling melancholy.  I'm listening to John Meyer for the first time (and hey he is darn good!) and just basically feeling a little anxious.  I talked to David tonight and he asked me if I wanted a divorce.  I said "I'm not ever getting back together with you".  You'd think he wouldn't have to ask, I mean it has almost been 9 months since the big event and I have said it to him multiple times and he doesn't seem to get it.  But tonight maybe he did.  Who knows.  I just want to peacefully get on with my life, no more drama.  Meanwhile, I'll just keep plugging along.

One of the things discussed between David and I is moving to Albequerque.  We had been talking about this before the big breakup, and I still want to move there.  Several of my friends don't want me to, but it would be closer to family and still in the type of climate I like, albeit much cooler than Phoenix.  My family/friends have expressed a concern over being out there on my own w/o resources that I have here (like a support system), but I can't live my life in fear of "what-ifs", KWIM?  Only a 7hr drive to OKC where Hannah is half the time, and 10hr drive to Dallas where family is.  Course cheaper and faster to fly as well as a lower cost of living.  Lots of benefits.  We'll see.

So an update on Hannah....she brushed her teeth again on Saturday, sigh.  Kathryn said "well at least she isn't kissing Em (BFF)."  I had to laugh at that one, because really, I don't want her kissing anyone, lol.  My friend, Jeanna, said, "next thing you know it'll be a trip to the birth control clinic".  Oh HELL NO!  I definitely need some therapy now!

Well on that note, I think I'll sign off and catch up on some journals.

Ciao!  De ;)

PS:  I just got an email...and he doesn't get it.

 

Your Ex is Dependent

Your ex is dependent on others from almost everything - and has trouble accepting responsibility. Your ex is not able to be independent and fears being alone. People with dependent personality disorder feel helpless when a relationship ends and need constant reassurance. Sound at all familiar?

What's Wrong With Your Ex?

 

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Saturday - And Prince Caspian is Hot

  Well I finally made it to see the newest Narnia movie, Prince Caspian.  Caleb took me to see it, and the movie was really good, better than even the trailers portray, and I've got to say that the actor, Ben Barnes, who plays Prince Caspian is so hot, lol.  I don't know if you ever glance at my sidebar, but it appears I have a thing for dark and handsome.  All that aside, I can't wait until the next sequel comes out, next May I think.  If you haven't seen the movie, you should indulge.  Worth every penny!

So the other night I was talking to Hannah because she was going over to her friend-boy's house to go swimming and I said "You should brush your teeth before you go", and Hannah said "what?  I always brush my teeth".  I'm like "no you don't, and you never know when you  need to have fresh breath."  That just got her laughing.  Well the next day Hannah said "Em (her BFF who was over with her friend-boy) brushed her teeth last night".  I said "nooooo!  And did you?"  And Hannah said "...yes".  OMG!  So I go "Just don't floss!", which of course sent her into giggles.  I'm so gonna need therapy!!!

Ciao!  De ;)

Tags: Prince Caspian, Kissing