Sunday - And I'm Risking It

 I think this is DAWN's favorite word at times and if she doesn't mind I'm going to borrow it today because I think it fits.  I feel like this but I'm going to work anyway.  I hope census is low and I get to send someone home early, i.e. me!  Oh yeah, I probably just jinxed it, lol.  This will be my first shift in a week, oy!  Wish me luck.

The weight issue seems to be stabilizing, let's hope it keeps going down because about the only thing that seems to sit well on my stomach is carbs, ugh.  I have eaten some chicken soup today and so far so good so we'll see.  OMG, you should have seen me last night, no on second thought you shouldn't have.  My stomach was so bloated with gas that I looked pregnant...egad!  My Dad the pharmacist reminded me that I could chew gum (increases peristalsis which moves gas along) since I didn't have any anit-gas meds in the house and I could just kiss him because w/in the hour it worked.  I LOVE YOU DADDY!

Well here is the tally today:

Weight Today: 124.2
Beginning Weight: 126.2
Total Lost so Far: 2 lbs
Exercise: Running to toilet x1 week (this counts...right?)

 

Ciao!  De ;)

Tags: I owe, I owe, so it's off to work I go!

Friday - And Not the Best Way to Lose Weight

 Ohhhhhh, I'm sick!  I actually (and you should sit down for this) went to the ER on Tuesday and was there for 6 hours getting 3 1/2 liters of fluids and lots of nausea meds and scurrying to the bathroom with the runs.  And I called in sick Wed and Thurs and I don't know how I'm gonna make it tomorrow either!  ::heavy sigh::  I think I am getting payback for every time I've said "I never get sick" to a patient!

And would you believe the most horrible part of all this is I came out of the ER weighing 5 MORE POUNDS than when I went in!  Okay VERONICA, you want to explain this to me?  I mean I know how it happens but geez what kind of luck do I have?  Same thing happened to me when I had both my c-sections, I got fluid overloaded.  I kept telling people (okay not people but nurses I work with) "enough already I'm drowning!".  But the doctor was like "she needs to pee" and I said "I'm peeing out my butt!" (sorry if that was a little TMI, lol).  I finally took out my own IV (yes I did!) and said "I'm sick, I don't feel good, and I want to go home.  Somebody call me a cab!"  Okay, so now you know that everything you heard about nurses not making the best patients is true!

So I went home still not having peed but feeling moderately better.  No longer dizzy and feeling like my heart was going to beat out of my chest when I stood up.  Problem was I was stubborn (I know hard to believe isn't it?) and was self-medicating at home for 24hours before a doctor at an Urgent Care blackmailed me into going by AMBULANCE to the ER (that is a story I will have to tell you about some day why I even went to the darn urgent care to begin with).  He thought I had gallstones and had pancreatitis (I don't have a gallbladder I told him) because I had billirubin and protein in my urine  (I've been throwing up and had diarrhea for 24hours and I'm dehydrated I said).  Then he thought it was my appendix because my abdomen was tender (let me push on your stomach while you are having diarrhea I told him.  It's not my appendix I swear!).  I just have gastroenteritis (basically a mean tummy bug) now give me some different drugs than I'm already taking and a note and let me leave!

Needless to say since I'm home moaning to you guys guess who was right?  I swear, some doctors are meant to be in urgent care clinics.  Oh and yes I did say that out loud cause guess who gets the bills after all this is said and done?

Okay here is the tally:

Weight before evil urgent care: 122.8
weight after evil urgent care: 127.8
weight today: 124.8
total weight loss: i'm not exactly sure!

Well, hope you've had a better week than me!  I am still having sweet dreams of Bon Jovi to carry me through!!!

Ciao!  De ;)

Tags: the tummy bug

Saturday - And Don't Hate Me

Guess what I did last night?!!

OMG!  This has to be the BEST concert I have EVER EVER attended in my whole entire LIFE!!!!!  I had the best time EVER!!!!!!!!  And boy did I need it, too!!

  This is Bon Jovi singing "You Want to Make a Memory" just a about 20feet from me!!!!  Got it with my camera phone, poor quality but awesome in person.

 And I can't forget Daughtry!  OMG he was awesome too!  (Sorry didn't get any good pictures of him...gotta buy a new camera!)

My friend, Jeanna, and I went last night and got there and sat down just as Daughtry came on stage.  They sang for about 45-50 minutes.

We just had enough timeto pee and get a drink and Bon Jovi came on.  I swear, I have never enjoyed a concert more in my life.  I know I keep saying that, but it is sooooo true!

On the weight loss issue, I sorta got side tracked, but I am posting latest numbers:

Weight Today: 124.4

I gotta go and cook dinner but I had to share this with you guys!  Wish you were there Kathryn!!!  You need to just go and be tired because you can "sleep when you're dead"!  Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Ciao!  De ;)

(Some of these pictures were taken by the news media but are from the concert last night in Phoenix)

Tags: Bon Jovi, Daughtry

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Saturday - And I'm Tirred

I kind of like this song, it alludes to my inner demons, lol.  I was talking with Veronica and I was saying I didn't know what was going on but in the last two days we have had a ton of overdoses, drunks, psych cases in the ER it is so overwhelming that I have sounds of screaming in my brain.  I can only imagine what is bouncing off the the walls of the patient's minds.  Here's hoping tonight is "lighter".

Okay, so yesterday I did Leslie Sansone "Walk Away the Pounds for Abs" for 20 minutes.  Did some good I think.  I"m going to pop off here so I can get to sweating again.  I'm off tomorrow!  Yea!!!!

Weight Today: 124.6
Weight Loss: 6 ounces
Total weight loss to date: 1.6 lbs
Exercise: Slim in 6 - 25 minutes
Starting Weight: 126.2 lbs
Goal Weight: 100 lbs

Ciao!  De ;)

Tags: The Sounds of Silence

Friday - And I'm Despondent

 

Okay...I'm still fat.  No weight loss for me today, but I'm going to use the excuse that I am about to have my monthly and I'm sure I'm retaining water weight, despite yesteredays 1 pound loss.  Sounds good to me, lol.

I am in a foul mood today, well since last night really.  Just separation/divorce issues really.  Was basically told to "FO" by my soon to be ex when he finally responded to my multiple requests for financial assistance.  To top that one off I got my lawyer bill yesterday for the month of March and it was more than I bring home in a month with overtime.  ::heavy sigh::  It get's better when?

Okay...off of here to go sweat before I go to work.  Have a good one!

Weight: 125.2; Exercise: 20-25minutes of something; Difference: 0

Ciao!  De ;)

 

Tags: Irreplaceable

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Thursday - And Miles to go before I Sleep

 I stole this picture from Dawn cause I plan on using it as an excuse, ha ha!  I don't have but a minute to post this entry if I am going to exercise before I head off to work.  Depending on how tired I am I may not squeeze in exercise in the next couple of days as I am working Thurs/Fri/Sat.  Don't usually work more than two in a row, but I got bamboozled into switching a shift with someone.  Seriously was sleep deprived when I agreed to that one.  Better get to it!

Oh...I forgot to add that my height is 4'10 for those who don't know and thus according to BMI charts (26.5 yesterday) I am overweight and headed for certain doom!  AHhhhhhhhhh!

Weight: 125.2
Difference: 1lb (water weight I'm sure)
Exercise: Jillian Michaels 30-Day Shred 20 minutes

Ciao!  De ;O

Tags: Carpe Diem, Miles to Go Before I Sleep

Wednesday - And I'm Fat!

OMG!  I did what I have been avoiding for a few weeks now...I stood on the scale.  Yikes!  I knew I had been gaining weight, clothes fitting tighter and tighter, but gee whiz I weigh more now than I ever have except when I was pregnant.  And, unfortunately for valid excuses, the only thing that is pregnant on me is my butt!  And no offense to my beautiful co-worker who says "all you need is a butt and a smile to get what you want in life", I don't think she meant a butt the size of Texas.

Ok, let's start with the excuses: 1) I'm a stress eater and I've definitely been under a LOT of stress lately; 2) I am having to work more now that I am again a soon-to-be-single mom; 3) that means less time to eat right; 4) that means less time to cook; 5) that means less time to exercise.  Another beautiful co-worker said the other day "If we don't have time to eat when we work, how come we are getting so fat?"  That is because we eat chocolate when stressed, grab what is fast, etc.  This sucks!

Now let's formulate a plan.  Atkins worked before, but I don't think I have the discipline this time...maybe who knows, we'll see.  I've already had more carbs in one meal today (and it was Lean Cuisine) than allowed all day on induction, not to mention the 4 cookies and two bags of chips (snack size of course).  Ugh and double ugh!  So that mean exercise, exercise, exercise.  Drink water, water, water.  DIEt, DIEt, DIEt!

I need help and encouragement!  I will try and log in everyday (AOL and daughter damaged computer allowing) and report my progress, if any (and it had better be something!) if you promise not to ask me "what is a white girl like you doing with a ghetto booty?"

Well, here goes nothing:

Weight: 126.2 (height 4'10); Exercise: 25minutes - Slim in 6

 

The Wreckers: Stand Still Look Pretty

I want to paint my face
And pretend that I am someone else
Sometimes I get so fed up
I don't even want to look at myself
But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I hate the way you look at me I have to say
I wish I could start over
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
You might think it's easy being me
You just stand still, look pretty
Sometimes I find myself shaking
In the middle of the night
And then it hits me and I can't
Even believe this is my life
But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I wish that everyone would go and shut their mouths
I'm not strong enough to deal with it

 

Ciao!  De ;)

 

Tags: One fat cat, Slim in 6, Stand Still Look Pretty