Well looks like AOL is shutting down their journal site. That's three years worth of memories for me, some good, some bad, none wanting to be forgotten. I don't know how to save or transfer them. I don't want to lose friendships. I just really don't know where to go from here, but I do hope I find you there...
Ciao! De ;)
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Thursday - And A New Beginning
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Saturday - And I'm All Lonesome
Ellloooo! I know, I know I never post anymore. Just not much exciting going on or too much, take your pick, ha ha. At any rate, I'm sitting here all alone as Caleb is at David's and Hannah is back in Oklahoma as of Thursday morning (boo hoo). I tried to pick up a shift but was all full. Oh well, I've been working too hard lately anyways.
Well guess what? David finally got served those divorce papers last week along with a protective order and a motion to enforce the support. I mean after six weeks of attempts it finally happened. That means he was served in time for the enforcement hearing in Oct. Yeah! Does that mean I will see any money anytime soon, probably not from the fact that I haven't seen a dime in 55 days. Humph! Well we'll see, just keep your fingers crossed for me cause I'm tired and stressed out!
What get's me is that David still doesn't get it that I don't want to reconcile. I mean, seriously, the man had me thrown in jail and he thinks I still love him but am fighting that loving feeling. Jeez! OMG he needs to get a reality check, KWIM? Anyways, nuff of my complaining.
Another reason I haven't posted much lately is that Hannah got me hooked on Facebook. I usually log on a couple times a day just to mess around or see what she is up to. Anyone want to be my friend, lol?
So how are you? With that, I'm signing off and saying...
Ciao!! De ;)
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Tuesday - And It's Movie Review Time
Onto other thoughts...I can't believe it's been over a month since I've posted. My doesn't life have a way of running away with you? Much happened. Evil director out at work although still present but as a staff nurse only (ha!), new director in (hopefully a good thing). Old DON out, still looking for new DON. I'm now the official "scheduler" in the ER whether that is good or bad we'll see. Still working a lot.
Hannah is here! Been here for a couple of weeks. Almost haven't seen here though due to my work schedule. Boo! More reasons to hate on my ex (who is still not paying me the money the Court awarded me...). Caleb over at my ex half the time...another boo!
I do like it that I don't have to answer to someone else's alternate reality, but it does still overflow a bit with having to deal with him regarding Caleb. David is still terrorizing me as much as he can when he can. I wish he would just fall of the face of the earth...::sigh::...or take up his "many opportunities" and have another relationship cause I ain't ever going back!! And I wish I didn't have to spend all my hard earned money trying to get David to pay me what he owes me. (Sorry rambling vent here)
On that note, I hope you have had a good summer and that the cool air of the fall is just around the corner. We have been in the upper 90s this week, but I think I see the 100s again later on. But we have had some nice monsoon storms, if you don't get caught in them, lol. Getting to the nice part of living in the desert. Miss my family, still hoping to move closer.
Going to work tonight and tomorrow. Have a good couple of days!
Ciao!
De ;)
PS: Latest weight...121.6!
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Thursday - And I'm Still Fat
Well, as you can guess by my title, I'm still fat, ugh. I got off track again. So I said I would start over (again) when I got back from my vacation to Texas. And I have. So I will be updating and trying to be accountable for what I'm doing. Who knows, maybe this time will be the time I stick with it.
Just dropped Caleb off with David a night early, and that makes me sad. But I got a call from work today saying that the Director of Nursing wants to meet with all the ER charge nurses in the morning at 0730. I could have woken Caleb up and drug him with me at the crack of dawn, but instead I thought it would be easier on all involved if I did it this way. I wouldn't even go to the meeting if it wasn't with the DON or the fact that we will be discussing the newest ER Nursing Director and hopefully getting him out of there. OMG, I know I haven't even broached this subject but this guy is a complete idiot and has absolutely no idea what he is doing. Was an EMT for fifteen years and a nurse for two years. You tell me what part of that equation qualifies you to run a department? Maybe in some cases the person could step and do a good job, but he is destroying the department from the inside out and we've had no less than five people quit in the month he's been in the position and two more are out the door. We've been in complete internal disaster and he refused to let us go on diversion. We also worked critically short and he refused to let us get agency or come in himself stating instead "keep up the good work". The man has no clue and I hope this meeting has him out the door.
Well, here's crossing my fingers. And with that I think I'll say...
Ciao! De ;)
Starting weight: 125.2 Today: 124.0 Exercise: Malibu Pilates-33 minutes
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Tuesday - And Oh that's the life I tell ya...
Well it's Tuesday...my first without a meeting in 6 months and what am I doing? Not a darn thing! Well, earlier I did run some errands and go to Wal-Mart (cause they have everything), cooked dinner, but mainly I'm hanging out with my boy. I always stressed to the women in my group to save Tuesdays for themselves and do something fun. Well, hanging out with the kiddos may not seem like "fun" to some, but I can't tell you how much I appreciate the capability of being able to do just that and not be locked up somewhere, considering I'm such a dangerous slipper-welding criminal, lol.
But onto another light note, I was sitting eating dinner with Caleb when he starting commenting on this Disney movie he was watching and said, "She has a limo and a butler Mom. Can you imagine? Oh that's the life I tell ya!" So I said, "Well you can have both if you work really hard when you get older ya know." "Really? Well I'm going to work as a cashier at Wal-Mart then!" Oh geez, well I think he is going to have work a little bit harder than that, but I'm not going to bust his bubble because it's my first Tuesday without a meeting and all is well!
On that note...
Ciao! De ;)
Tags: The Simple Life
Monday, July 21, 2008
Monday - And I'm Melancholy
Well I should've worked tonight because I'm sitting here alone in my apartment (Caleb is at David's and Hannah is on a church youth camp in FL) and feeling melancholy. I'm listening to John Meyer for the first time (and hey he is darn good!) and just basically feeling a little anxious. I talked to David tonight and he asked me if I wanted a divorce. I said "I'm not ever getting back together with you". You'd think he wouldn't have to ask, I mean it has almost been 9 months since the big event and I have said it to him multiple times and he doesn't seem to get it. But tonight maybe he did. Who knows. I just want to peacefully get on with my life, no more drama. Meanwhile, I'll just keep plugging along.
One of the things discussed between David and I is moving to Albequerque. We had been talking about this before the big breakup, and I still want to move there. Several of my friends don't want me to, but it would be closer to family and still in the type of climate I like, albeit much cooler than Phoenix. My family/friends have expressed a concern over being out there on my own w/o resources that I have here (like a support system), but I can't live my life in fear of "what-ifs", KWIM? Only a 7hr drive to OKC where Hannah is half the time, and 10hr drive to Dallas where family is. Course cheaper and faster to fly as well as a lower cost of living. Lots of benefits. We'll see.
Well on that note, I think I'll sign off and catch up on some journals.
Ciao! De ;)
PS: I just got an email...and he doesn't get it.
| Your Ex is Dependent |
 Your ex is dependent on others from almost everything - and has trouble accepting responsibility.Your ex is not able to be independent and fears being alone. People with dependent personality disorder feel helpless when a relationship ends and need constant reassurance. Sound at all familiar? |
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Saturday - And Prince Caspian is Hot
So the other night I was talking to Hannah because she was going over to her friend-boy's house to go swimming and I said "You should brush your teeth before you go", and Hannah said "what? I always brush my teeth". I'm like "no you don't, and you never know when you need to have fresh breath." That just got her laughing. Well the next day Hannah said "Em (her BFF who was over with her friend-boy) brushed her teeth last night". I said "nooooo! And did you?" And Hannah said "...yes". OMG! So I go "Just don't floss!", which of course sent her into giggles. I'm so gonna need therapy!!!
Ciao! De ;)
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Tuesday - And I've Perservered
It's easier to go down a hill than up it but the view is much better at the top. ~ Arnold Bennett
Well...it's done. I'm finished.
As you all know, David and I are separated, but what you don't know is why. I haven't really said anything except to my closet friends and family because I was ashamed of what happened, but now I'm done and I feel like I can discuss the events that transpired.
David and I had not been getting a long for quite a while and were having a weekend long fight and he had been keeping me up and not letting me sleep except for 10-15minute snatches. I finally reached a breaking point after 48hours and on October 29th 2007 struck out, hitting David. I am not going to say that what I did was right, but I do think that what David did next was very wrong given the fact he was not injured and all I used was my slipper...he called the police (to show me how I've been treating him for 2 1/2 years he said). And, with the laws the way they are, and the fact that he fabricated a lot, I got arrested.
Yes, you read it right, I got arrested and spent 18hours in jail. 18hours of pure hell for anyone, and especially hard for me since I'm claustrophobic. I did have panic attacks and I cried endlessly and didn't sleep even more. I thank God for the sympathetic female police officer who gave me $20 for a cab home after getting out. I thank God for my family and friends who have defended me and stuck by me all the way. But most of all, I thank God for being arrested and getting me out of an abusive marriage.
Now what am I done with? I plead guilty to domestic violence and as my "diversion" sentence I had to attend 26 weeks of domestic violence counseling and tonight was #26. Now the arrest will be expunged from "my record". So I'm done! I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can now move forward with my life, and I can't wait!
And so today I wish each and everyone of you the best in life, and I wish you perseverance with whatever obstacles and tribulations you may face. But most of all, I wish for God to bless you endlessly.
Tags: Perserverance
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Saturday - And I'm Looking For My Own Island
Oh wow...two entries back to back. The world must surely be ending, lol. How goes it? Just not doing much today. I slept like forever, or it felt like I could. Have been working so much lately that I guess I'm worn out. Caleb woke me up a few times and finally said, "Mom! It's 4:00!" Oy!
Well I got up, talked to Kathryn for a while, jumped into the shower and then the boy and I went to a $1 movie that cost me $6. How does that add up, ha ha? At any rate, we saw Nims Island. It was really cute. Didn't get a lot of press but I liked the idea of having my own private island away from the rest of world, then I could live out my hermit mode w/o too much poking at me. Course I would have to have my puter and TV, and oh yeah...the kids ;)
Missing Hannah. She went back to OKC last Sunday (hence the double entries). One week down, six more to go. I told Hannah she could stay extra since there is a church youth retreat she wants to go to in Aug. What a good Mom I am! Sure wish I could move closer. ::Sigh::
Got an email from David today. First part he is threatening me (a usual occurrence), then in the end tells me he loves me and misses me. Jeez, I sure do miss the emotional abuse and manipulation I lived with for ten years. Let me think...Nah, not gonna go back!
Gotta work the next three nights then I'm off on the 2nd for Texas for six days!!! I soooo need the break. It is the annual get-together at my Dad's for July 4th. So, if I don't post again I'm sure you won't be surprised given my track record of late, haha.
Wishing you all a safe holiday!
Ciao!
Friday, June 27, 2008
Friday - And I'm Just a Little Bit Stressed
To make a long story short and to skip a lot of details, I've had to work a lot because of two reasons...(1) David isn't paying me support despite an Order to do so, and (2) my job cut our pay (I didn't realize that a recession had hit the health care industry).
The second issue is pretty complicated, but I haven't left because I keep thinking if I hang on then they will re-instate the pay, the bonuses, and give us a raise. Also, if I get another job, I'd really just like to leave the state and move closer to my family. Gotta do the legal legwork with the Court to do that one. This sucks cause I sure don't want to be stuck 1100 miles from my family until Caleb is much older. I hate being in this situation again!
The first issue is the most frustrating. I never ever saw this blatant disregard and general insaneness in David when we were first married or dating. If I had, I would have run for the hills. I often ask myself how could I have been so blind? I know David thinks if he bankrupts me I will come running back to him, but I have news for him...I'm ALREADY GONE!
And how has everyone else been? I need to catch up on your journals as well as the rest of my life, lol.
Ciao for now!
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Thursday - And I'm Off
And boy did I earn my pay this weekend! It was a new moon (which I personally think is worse than a full one) and we had 5 psych holds all weekend because all the psych hospitals were full. And Monday night was horrible, just horrible! I put us on total divert for 3 hours and then it was still horrible! This EMT told me last night that was I exceptionally beautiful when I was stressed, so I told him that he should have been in the ER Monday night because I must have been positively glowing, lol. Then it was Cinco de Mayo on top of all that! Ugh. Thank the good Lord those 4 days are over!
I was kinda put put out with this family Monday night. Their loved one passed during a code and the daughter works for a mortuary. Well the patient hadn't been dead for even an hour and I was told they had already called the mortuary and they were en route to pick up the body. I'm like "whoa!" because I have legal steps I have to take before I release a body like call the medical examiner's office and notify them of the death and then organ donor network, etc. I hadn't done any of that yet. It did so happen I just got off of the phone with the ME's office and they declined the case (long standing terminal illness and a private physician willing to sign death certificate) when the mortuary showed up, but Ilet the family know that was inappropriate and the mortuary too. Kinda gave me the wilily's, KWIM? I'm sure it was nothing but I don't like people too eager to take care of affairs. I probably just watch too much TV, lol.
So I've been super duper tired and had to go back to bed after I picked up Caleb from school today. I'm up late washing clothes and packing cause our plane leaves Phoenix at 7:05am! Egads! And I know you know how much I hate flying (right Betty?), so if you are up early and read this please say a prayer for me and Caleb. We will be back on Sunday night and then I"m back to work on Monday. Hannah is coming back with me, yea!
Did anyone get a chance to see Iron Man yet? I know that Dawn has and she thinks that she is going to get my man, but she is evil and good always wins! Right?
Hope you all have a great weekend and a wonderful Mother's Day!
Ciao! De ;)
Weight today: 122.8 ;)
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Saturday - And I Wish I was Pepper Potts
I work Sat/Sun/Mon then I'm off for a whole week! Going to OKC to pick up Hannah and to see Elizabeth graduate from nursing school. I'm super-excited about both!
Have a great weekend and don't forget, go to the movies!
Oh...weight today: 123.2 ;)
Tags: Iron Man
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Sunday - And I'm Risking It
The weight issue seems to be stabilizing, let's hope it keeps going down because about the only thing that seems to sit well on my stomach is carbs, ugh. I have eaten some chicken soup today and so far so good so we'll see. OMG, you should have seen me last night, no on second thought you shouldn't have. My stomach was so bloated with gas that I looked pregnant...egad! My Dad the pharmacist reminded me that I could chew gum (increases peristalsis which moves gas along) since I didn't have any anit-gas meds in the house and I could just kiss him because w/in the hour it worked. I LOVE YOU DADDY!
Well here is the tally today:
Weight Today: 124.2
Beginning Weight: 126.2
Total Lost so Far: 2 lbs
Exercise: Running to toilet x1 week (this counts...right?)
Ciao! De ;)
Tags: I owe, I owe, so it's off to work I go!
Friday, April 18, 2008
Friday - And Not the Best Way to Lose Weight
And would you believe the most horrible part of all this is I came out of the ER weighing 5 MORE POUNDS than when I went in! Okay VERONICA, you want to explain this to me? I mean I know how it happens but geez what kind of luck do I have? Same thing happened to me when I had both my c-sections, I got fluid overloaded. I kept telling people (okay not people but nurses I work with) "enough already I'm drowning!". But the doctor was like "she needs to pee" and I said "I'm peeing out my butt!" (sorry if that was a little TMI, lol). I finally took out my own IV (yes I did!) and said "I'm sick, I don't feel good, and I want to go home. Somebody call me a cab!" Okay, so now you know that everything you heard about nurses not making the best patients is true!
So I went home still not having peed but feeling moderately better. No longer dizzy and feeling like my heart was going to beat out of my chest when I stood up. Problem was I was stubborn (I know hard to believe isn't it?) and was self-medicating at home for 24hours before a doctor at an Urgent Care blackmailed me into going by AMBULANCE to the ER (that is a story I will have to tell you about some day why I even went to the darn urgent care to begin with). He thought I had gallstones and had pancreatitis (I don't have a gallbladder I told him) because I had billirubin and protein in my urine (I've been throwing up and had diarrhea for 24hours and I'm dehydrated I said). Then he thought it was my appendix because my abdomen was tender (let me push on your stomach while you are having diarrhea I told him. It's not my appendix I swear!). I just have gastroenteritis (basically a mean tummy bug) now give me some different drugs than I'm already taking and a note and let me leave!
Needless to say since I'm home moaning to you guys guess who was right? I swear, some doctors are meant to be in urgent care clinics. Oh and yes I did say that out loud cause guess who gets the bills after all this is said and done?
Okay here is the tally:
Weight before evil urgent care: 122.8
weight after evil urgent care: 127.8
weight today: 124.8
total weight loss: i'm not exactly sure!
Well, hope you've had a better week than me! I am still having sweet dreams of Bon Jovi to carry me through!!!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Saturday - And Don't Hate Me
Guess what I did last night?!!
OMG! This has to be the BEST concert I have EVER EVER attended in my whole entire LIFE!!!!! I had the best time EVER!!!!!!!! And boy did I need it, too!!
On the weight loss issue, I sorta got side tracked, but I am posting latest numbers:
Weight Today: 124.4
I gotta go and cook dinner but I had to share this with you guys! Wish you were there Kathryn!!! You need to just go and be tired because you can "sleep when you're dead"! Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
(Some of these pictures were taken by the news media but are from the concert last night in Phoenix)
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Saturday - And I'm Tirred
I kind of like this song, it alludes to my inner demons, lol. I was talking with Veronica and I was saying I didn't know what was going on but in the last two days we have had a ton of overdoses, drunks, psych cases in the ER it is so overwhelming that I have sounds of screaming in my brain. I can only imagine what is bouncing off the the walls of the patient's minds. Here's hoping tonight is "lighter".
Okay, so yesterday I did Leslie Sansone "Walk Away the Pounds for Abs" for 20 minutes. Did some good I think. I"m going to pop off here so I can get to sweating again. I'm off tomorrow! Yea!!!!
Weight Today: 124.6
Weight Loss: 6 ounces
Total weight loss to date: 1.6 lbs
Exercise: Slim in 6 - 25 minutes
Starting Weight: 126.2 lbs
Goal Weight: 100 lbs
Ciao! De ;)
Friday, April 4, 2008
Friday - And I'm Despondent
Okay...I'm still fat. No weight loss for me today, but I'm going to use the excuse that I am about to have my monthly and I'm sure I'm retaining water weight, despite yesteredays 1 pound loss. Sounds good to me, lol.
I am in a foul mood today, well since last night really. Just separation/divorce issues really. Was basically told to "FO" by my soon to be ex when he finally responded to my multiple requests for financial assistance. To top that one off I got my lawyer bill yesterday for the month of March and it was more than I bring home in a month with overtime. ::heavy sigh:: It get's better when?
Okay...off of here to go sweat before I go to work. Have a good one!
Weight: 125.2; Exercise: 20-25minutes of something; Difference: 0
Ciao! De ;)
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Thursday - And Miles to go before I Sleep
Oh...I forgot to add that my height is 4'10 for those who don't know and thus according to BMI charts (26.5 yesterday) I am overweight and headed for certain doom! AHhhhhhhhhh!
Weight: 125.2
Difference: 1lb (water weight I'm sure)
Exercise: Jillian Michaels 30-Day Shred 20 minutes
Ciao! De ;O
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Wednesday - And I'm Fat!
OMG! I did what I have been avoiding for a few weeks now...I stood on the scale. Yikes! I knew I had been gaining weight, clothes fitting tighter and tighter, but gee whiz I weigh more now than I ever have except when I was pregnant. And, unfortunately for valid excuses, the only thing that is pregnant on me is my butt! And no offense to my beautiful co-worker who says "all you need is a butt and a smile to get what you want in life", I don't think she meant a butt the size of Texas.
Ok, let's start with the excuses: 1) I'm a stress eater and I've definitely been under a LOT of stress lately; 2) I am having to work more now that I am again a soon-to-be-single mom; 3) that means less time to eat right; 4) that means less time to cook; 5) that means less time to exercise. Another beautiful co-worker said the other day "If we don't have time to eat when we work, how come we are getting so fat?" That is because we eat chocolate when stressed, grab what is fast, etc. This sucks!
Now let's formulate a plan. Atkins worked before, but I don't think I have the discipline this time...maybe who knows, we'll see. I've already had more carbs in one meal today (and it was Lean Cuisine) than allowed all day on induction, not to mention the 4 cookies and two bags of chips (snack size of course). Ugh and double ugh! So that mean exercise, exercise, exercise. Drink water, water, water. DIEt, DIEt, DIEt!
I need help and encouragement! I will try and log in everyday (AOL and daughter damaged computer allowing) and report my progress, if any (and it had better be something!) if you promise not to ask me "what is a white girl like you doing with a ghetto booty?"
Well, here goes nothing:
Weight: 126.2 (height 4'10); Exercise: 25minutes - Slim in 6
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
AOHell + One Daughter
I have been having a heck of time the last few weeks getting on AOL, getting my AIM mail (forget it), reading posts, and posting one myself. Coincidently this has all peaked during the time my precious daughter, Hannah is home using my puter since hers is defunct (a gift from DH). I think I'm putting a hit out on her head, seriously.
Okay...I will leave you with happy thoughts and pleasant "Daydreams" (Jason Castro - just one of the reasons you should be watching American Idol this season).
Ciao! De ;)
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Thursday - Somebody To Love
Well, Happy Valentines Day, or as Hannah says "Happy Singles Awareness Day". Gotta love that, lol.
Now rewind past the 11th year and it did torment me to be single. Oh why oh why didn't someone want to be with me? Where was my true love, my soulmate (yes I'm gagging as I write that word)? "Won't anybody find me somebody to love?"
Fast forward...I'm not dwelling on it, I'm going to work! Hope your day is filling with lots of love and chocolate!
Ciao! De ;)
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Wednesday - How Long?
Okay, so here is my first entry since I've gone private. Took me a while, I know. I get in my "hermit" mode (as I'm fond of saying) when the times get tough. I withdraw and hunker down, protect myself and my own.
It's been rough. I never thought I would be in this position again. When I married David I thought I had found my soulmate. Now I hate that very word. Don't think I'm made for marriage, 0 for 2, men are not on my radar (with the exception of Johnny Depp--right Betty?), I'm never getting married again, etc. I've been saying. Oh, don't get me wrong, I still believe in the foundation of marriage, but I certainly don't think I'm going to be competing with Liz Taylor to find "the right one". I think I'll just live my days with a "friend" like Jackie O...as long as he's rich. I've married for love twice, next time I'm with someone it's going to be for money, lol.
So, D-day was Oct 29th. It was a catastrophic event, that had it not happened, I would probably still be in an emotionally abusive marriage (and at times physical). I think I cursed every breath that David could possibly take from here to eternity and then some. Now I am thanking God I am out of this marriage. I can see daylight, breath the fresh air. I don't feel suffocated, closed in, confined, trapped, hopeless anymore. But I'm scared of what the future holds. I blame David for that one.
I've never been one to totally depend on another person to take care of me, so it really surprises me that I allowed David to have such control of me thatI would doubt myself and my ability to take care of my family. I work hard and I make pretty decent money. I can do this. I will do this!
So, as the song says, "woman how long will you weep?" Not long I say, not long at all!
Friday, February 1, 2008
Early Friday - Wasted
"I'm not spending no more time Wasted..."
Back in October, David and I got separated after 9 1/2 years of marriage. Some felt total and complete shock, but those who knew me best weren't so surprised. I haven't really written anything here in my journal because, frankly, HE can read it...that is unless I go private, which is what I intend to do. Not that I plan on spilling all the details, but hey, it's my journal and I want to feel as though I can write freely and openly. That is what these things are for, right?
So to those of you who have never been through a separation or a divorce, it's not easy. Never. Not from the moment you make the decision to the very last second. It's never, ever easy no matter how much turmoil is in your marriage, or if you just simply drift apart. Then there are the children...God doesn't it just rip my heart out to do this to my children! But, having weighed all the factors, I do believe I have made the best choice given the set of circumstances...each time.
So, please forgive me if I get really depressed, have a "terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day", or just don't feel like writing, reading, or commenting. I do love you all dearly, and thank God for the wonderful friendships forged through J-Land.
So...if you care to keep following along, if I don't bore you, if you are at all interested, send me a link so that I can include you as a "reader" because after this entry all will be private.
Love you all...
Ciao! De ;)
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Wednesday - Which Came First?
Just a little joke in light of my meloncoly mood of late...
POSSIBLY THE VERY BEST CHICKEN JOKE EVER
A chicken and an egg are lying in bed. The chicken is leaning against the headboard smoking a cigarette, with a satisfied smile on its face. The egg, looking a bit pissed off, grabs the sheet, rolls over, and says, "Well, I guess we finally answered THAT question.
If anyone needs it explained - read it a second time
Hope that brightens your day!
Ciao, De ;)Monday, January 28, 2008
Monday - Just Needing to Vent
Thanks for being my friends and stopping by and giving me such kind supporting words...sorry I haven't been on your journals lately. Life will return to normal one day.
Hope everyone had a good New Years!
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Wednesday - It's Hump Day!
Speaking of work...Not a lot moves me these days in the ER I'm sad to say. But last night I had this 28 year old lady I started out having words with, and ended up not letting her see me cry. She was having a miscarriage and screaming her head off (and I don't mean moaning and groaning, I mean "It hurts" "I'm dying" "Somebody help me") at the top of her voice. I went in her room and gripped her out telling her she was not only disrupting the entire ER but was only making herself feel worse and that I would be back in a few minutes with some pain medicines. I know 90% of her behavior was anxiety, but someone had to get control as she was hysterical. At any rate, she completely miscarried in the ER an approximate 4 month fetus. I was moving her from the female exam room to another room and when she stood up the placenta and fetus was on the bed. I quickly covered it up but not before she saw it. She started crying and crying. I tried to reassure her and tell her it wasn't her fault, that this was God's way of taking care of the little ones who were too sick to make it being born. I started wheeling her out of the room and she started screaming again "My baby, my baby!" I just stopped, hugged her, and whispered in her ear "Let me and God take care of your baby." She just quietly sobbed after that. Once I got her settled in the other room I went back, picked up the fetus to put it in a specimen jar and send down to pathology and I just started crying and saying "I'm so sorry little baby. It's all better now, you don't feel any pain now." So, just every once in a while something happens in the ER and God reminds me that I do care.
Well on that note, I had better hop in the shower. Hope everyone is doing okay!
PS: Here is a link to a slide show of Rachel's wedding. Made me cry and I'm just the Aunt, lol.
http://www.table4photography.com/shows/GarrettShow/
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Thursday - Rachel's Wedding Pics (a few)
Thought I would post a few pictures from Rachel (my niece) wedding, which was wonderful! I had so much fun and Rachel was so pretty. Downside, the weather turned wicked cold and the wind blew right up my dress freezing my privates, lol. Here are a few pics....
Well, I'm working tonight. Ought to be a barrell of laughs, ha ha. I can't wait to hear how much fun it was New Year's Eve...
Ciao! De ;)
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