Saturday - And I'm Looking For My Own Island

Oh wow...two entries back to back.  The world must surely be ending, lol.  How goes it?  Just not doing much today.  I slept like forever, or it felt like I could.  Have been working so much lately that I guess I'm worn out.  Caleb woke me up a few times and finally said, "Mom! It's 4:00!"  Oy!

Well I got up, talked to Kathryn for a while, jumped into the shower and then the boy and I went to a $1 movie that cost me $6.  How does that add up, ha ha?  At any rate, we saw Nims Island.  It was really cute.  Didn't get a lot of press but I liked the idea of having my own private island away from the rest of world, then I could live out my hermit mode w/o too much poking at me.  Course I would have to have my puter and TV, and oh yeah...the kids ;)

Missing Hannah. She went back to OKC last Sunday (hence the double entries).  One week down, six more to go.  I told Hannah she could stay extra since there is a church youth retreat she wants to go to in Aug.  What a good Mom I am!  Sure wish I could move closer.  ::Sigh::

Got an email from David today.  First part he is threatening me (a usual occurrence), then in the end tells me he loves me and misses me.  Jeez, I sure do miss the emotional abuse and manipulation I lived with for ten years.  Let me think...Nah, not gonna go back!

Gotta work the next three nights then I'm off on the 2nd for Texas for six days!!!  I soooo need the break.  It is the annual get-together at my Dad's for July 4th.  So, if I don't post again I'm sure you won't be surprised given my track record of late, haha.

Wishing you all a safe holiday!

Ciao!

De ;)

Tags: Nim's Island, It's My Life, July 4th, Cigarettes

Friday - And I'm Just a Little Bit Stressed

Well, wow...can't believe it's been a couple of months since I posted last.  Hannah was here hogging my computer, but that is really just an excuse.  I've really been stressed and been in my hermit/hibernation mode.

To make a long story short and to skip a lot of details, I've had to work a lot because of two reasons...(1) David isn't paying me support despite an Order to do so, and (2) my job cut our pay (I didn't realize that a recession had hit the health care industry).

The second issue is pretty complicated, but I haven't left because I keep thinking if I hang on then they will re-instate the pay, the bonuses, and give us a raise.  Also, if I get another job, I'd really just like to leave the state and move closer to my family.  Gotta do the legal legwork with the Court to do that one.  This sucks cause I sure don't want to be stuck 1100 miles from my family until Caleb is much older.  I hate being in this situation again!

The first issue is the most frustrating.  I never ever saw this blatant disregard and general insaneness in David when we were first married or dating.  If I had, I would have run for the hills.  I often ask myself how could I have been so blind?  I know David thinks if he bankrupts me I will come running back to him, but I have news for him...I'm ALREADY GONE!

Well, enough of my morose and self-pity...my sister Kathryn (who is my fav, right Kat?) is having a rough time right now.  Without going into detail, just keep her in mind today will ya?  Hope this cheers you up...

And how has everyone else been?  I need to catch up on your journals as well as the rest of my life, lol.

Ciao for now!

De ;)

Tags: Ironic, Already Gone, Baby Got Back

Thursday - And I'm Off

  Well, I made it through my shifts this weekend, and then I ended up going into work Tuesday night after my meeting cause my friend, Maria, called me and said "Please, it is only me and Shawna after 3am!".  Darn it I couldn't ignore that one cause I've been in that position and it just sucks.  Plus it was "call-back pay" (time and a half) which I sorely need right now.

And boy did I earn my pay this weekend!  It was a new moon (which I personally think is worse than a full one) and we had 5 psych holds all weekend because all the psych hospitals were full.  And Monday night was horrible, just horrible!  I put us on total divert for 3 hours and then it was still horrible!  This EMT told me last night that was I exceptionally beautiful when I was stressed, so I told him that he should have been in the ER Monday night because I must have been positively glowing, lol.  Then it was Cinco de Mayo on top of all that!  Ugh.  Thank the good Lord those 4 days are over!

I was kinda put put out with this family Monday night.  Their loved one passed during a code and the daughter works for a mortuary.  Well the patient hadn't been dead for even an hour and I was told they had already called the mortuary and they were en route to pick up the body.  I'm like "whoa!" because I have legal steps I have to take before I release a body like call the medical examiner's office and notify them of the death and then organ donor network, etc.  I hadn't done any of that yet.  It did so happen I just got off of the phone with the ME's office and they declined the case (long standing terminal illness and a private physician willing to sign death certificate) when the mortuary showed up, but Ilet the family know that was inappropriate and the mortuary too.  Kinda gave me the wilily's, KWIM?  I'm sure it was nothing but I don't like people too eager to take care of affairs.  I probably just watch too much TV, lol.

So I've been super duper tired and had to go back to bed after I picked up Caleb from school today.  I'm up late washing clothes and packing cause our plane leaves Phoenix at 7:05am!  Egads!  And I know you know how much I hate flying (right Betty?), so if you are up early and read this please say a prayer for me and Caleb.  We will be back on Sunday night and then I"m back to work on Monday.  Hannah is coming back with me, yea!

 

Did anyone get a chance to see Iron Man yet?  I know that Dawn has and she thinks that she is going to get my man, but she is evil and good always wins!  Right?

 

Hope you all have a great weekend and a wonderful Mother's Day!

 

Ciao! De ;)

 

     Weight today: 122.8 ;)

 

Tags: Cinco de Mayo, Iron Man, Flying, Crazy People

Saturday - And I Wish I was Pepper Potts

  Okay...whatever else you are doing this weekend, make time for Iron Man.  Seriously, it is a totally awesomazing movie!  And did I mention it has Robert Downey Jr in it?  OMG, ladies, that fact alone makes the movie worth seeing!!!  I give it an "A".  Non-stop action, edge of your seat fun.  Caleb took me to the movie and we both left going "we gotta see that again!"

I work Sat/Sun/Mon then I'm off for a whole week!  Going to OKC to pick up Hannah and to see Elizabeth graduate from nursing school.  I'm super-excited about both!

Have a great weekend and don't forget, go to the movies!

Ciao!  De ;)

 

Oh...weight today: 123.2 ;)

Tags: Iron Man

Sunday - And I'm Risking It

 I think this is DAWN's favorite word at times and if she doesn't mind I'm going to borrow it today because I think it fits.  I feel like this but I'm going to work anyway.  I hope census is low and I get to send someone home early, i.e. me!  Oh yeah, I probably just jinxed it, lol.  This will be my first shift in a week, oy!  Wish me luck.

The weight issue seems to be stabilizing, let's hope it keeps going down because about the only thing that seems to sit well on my stomach is carbs, ugh.  I have eaten some chicken soup today and so far so good so we'll see.  OMG, you should have seen me last night, no on second thought you shouldn't have.  My stomach was so bloated with gas that I looked pregnant...egad!  My Dad the pharmacist reminded me that I could chew gum (increases peristalsis which moves gas along) since I didn't have any anit-gas meds in the house and I could just kiss him because w/in the hour it worked.  I LOVE YOU DADDY!

Well here is the tally today:

Weight Today: 124.2
Beginning Weight: 126.2
Total Lost so Far: 2 lbs
Exercise: Running to toilet x1 week (this counts...right?)

 

Ciao!  De ;)

Tags: I owe, I owe, so it's off to work I go!

Friday - And Not the Best Way to Lose Weight

 Ohhhhhh, I'm sick!  I actually (and you should sit down for this) went to the ER on Tuesday and was there for 6 hours getting 3 1/2 liters of fluids and lots of nausea meds and scurrying to the bathroom with the runs.  And I called in sick Wed and Thurs and I don't know how I'm gonna make it tomorrow either!  ::heavy sigh::  I think I am getting payback for every time I've said "I never get sick" to a patient!

And would you believe the most horrible part of all this is I came out of the ER weighing 5 MORE POUNDS than when I went in!  Okay VERONICA, you want to explain this to me?  I mean I know how it happens but geez what kind of luck do I have?  Same thing happened to me when I had both my c-sections, I got fluid overloaded.  I kept telling people (okay not people but nurses I work with) "enough already I'm drowning!".  But the doctor was like "she needs to pee" and I said "I'm peeing out my butt!" (sorry if that was a little TMI, lol).  I finally took out my own IV (yes I did!) and said "I'm sick, I don't feel good, and I want to go home.  Somebody call me a cab!"  Okay, so now you know that everything you heard about nurses not making the best patients is true!

So I went home still not having peed but feeling moderately better.  No longer dizzy and feeling like my heart was going to beat out of my chest when I stood up.  Problem was I was stubborn (I know hard to believe isn't it?) and was self-medicating at home for 24hours before a doctor at an Urgent Care blackmailed me into going by AMBULANCE to the ER (that is a story I will have to tell you about some day why I even went to the darn urgent care to begin with).  He thought I had gallstones and had pancreatitis (I don't have a gallbladder I told him) because I had billirubin and protein in my urine  (I've been throwing up and had diarrhea for 24hours and I'm dehydrated I said).  Then he thought it was my appendix because my abdomen was tender (let me push on your stomach while you are having diarrhea I told him.  It's not my appendix I swear!).  I just have gastroenteritis (basically a mean tummy bug) now give me some different drugs than I'm already taking and a note and let me leave!

Needless to say since I'm home moaning to you guys guess who was right?  I swear, some doctors are meant to be in urgent care clinics.  Oh and yes I did say that out loud cause guess who gets the bills after all this is said and done?

Okay here is the tally:

Weight before evil urgent care: 122.8
weight after evil urgent care: 127.8
weight today: 124.8
total weight loss: i'm not exactly sure!

Well, hope you've had a better week than me!  I am still having sweet dreams of Bon Jovi to carry me through!!!

Ciao!  De ;)

Tags: the tummy bug

Saturday - And Don't Hate Me

Guess what I did last night?!!

OMG!  This has to be the BEST concert I have EVER EVER attended in my whole entire LIFE!!!!!  I had the best time EVER!!!!!!!!  And boy did I need it, too!!

  This is Bon Jovi singing "You Want to Make a Memory" just a about 20feet from me!!!!  Got it with my camera phone, poor quality but awesome in person.

 And I can't forget Daughtry!  OMG he was awesome too!  (Sorry didn't get any good pictures of him...gotta buy a new camera!)

My friend, Jeanna, and I went last night and got there and sat down just as Daughtry came on stage.  They sang for about 45-50 minutes.

We just had enough timeto pee and get a drink and Bon Jovi came on.  I swear, I have never enjoyed a concert more in my life.  I know I keep saying that, but it is sooooo true!

On the weight loss issue, I sorta got side tracked, but I am posting latest numbers:

Weight Today: 124.4

I gotta go and cook dinner but I had to share this with you guys!  Wish you were there Kathryn!!!  You need to just go and be tired because you can "sleep when you're dead"!  Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Ciao!  De ;)

(Some of these pictures were taken by the news media but are from the concert last night in Phoenix)

Tags: Bon Jovi, Daughtry

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