Just Thinking

Just thinking....worked the last 5 out of 6 days, 12hr shifts.  Too many nights...too many bad nights.  You ever wonder if the cosmos are wrecking havoc with your life.  It seemed like it in the ER this last week.  Don't know what on earth was going on....don't know that I ever do.

There is no public intoxication law where I live...we seem to be the dumping ground for sobering up the riff/raff.  You just get burned out.  I was thinking last night...what am I doing here?  This is not why I got into nursing.  Don't get me wrong...I love being a nurse, I just don't like being under-appreciated and working my you know what off for the same loser to come back the next week.  Same story, different chapter.  I wiped up a grown man's butt last night because he was too high to do it himself.  I am beginning to think that the world in general is going to pieces.  Kinda in that mood myself.

But you know what, in the middle of all the chaos that was my shift last night, this woman who I did not even take care of for one second took the time and said, "I like you."  I was quiet taken aback and said, "What?!"  She said, "I like you.  I been watching you and no matter what you jump right in and take charge.  You work very hard.  I admire that, and I just wanted to tell you."  I was shocked, but I choked out "Thank you so much!"

Now that is why I got into nursing.